Amy Satori

Intuitive Spiritual Counselor

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Confessions of a Healer

I used to lay in bed at night and cry myself to sleep. My husband at the time would console me as best he could then I would wake up at 3:00 in the morning and start sobbing all over again. I had been married to a prior husband in a household full of amazing animals. When we divorced, I had to abandon most of them. We were all very close knit and this tore me apart. We had three german shepherds, a maltese, and five cats and each of them was my best friend. It was almost impossible to choose which two to bring to an apartment.

Then, when I finally chose, I still had to keep picking one of my shepherds up each week to take to the chiropractor because she had a degenerative disease in her back and was getting to the point she couldn't go the bathroom anymore. As her condition did not seem to be improving, I had to take her to vet visits to have her evacuated (this was this vet's first practice and we were his first clients when Loba was just a pup so she grew up with this vet). He (and his lovely wife we'd also grown close to) and I (alone) eventually had to have her put down at the tender year of two while she laid across my lap and peed all over me still so full of life (she loved frisbees and balls so much she was still taking off after one to her last day).

Soon after, one of the cats I had chosen to live in my apartment with me had been sneezing a lot and started to drool. I brought him to the vet to find out what was going on. I found out he was going through kidney failure and was going to die (Loba had just died two weeks prior). He was dying because some guy bought me my favorite flowers (Stargazer lillies) to impress me even though I had quickly brought them to the bathroom so the cats wouldn't get into them and I could do some research on the internet to see if they were safe. I remembered one petal dropped on the floor between the front door and the bathroom and he had licked the petal (when I discovered they were poisonous, I was actually relieved because he had only licked it). I never cried so hard as I did holding sweet little Leo's lifeless body in my arms all because some stupid guy gave me flowers. He was such an angel and so young.

In the meantime, our little maltese, who literally looked up to me endearingly every waking moment, but who I was unsuccessful at potty training despite my best efforts as a positive reinforcement trainer, got placed in a new home. And one of my german shepherds we adopted I promised would never have to go to another home again as long as he lived because he'd been tossed around like a toy from home to home for many years, went to a new home because my ex husband said he was dying of a broken heart and he couldn't stand watching it. He was with his new owners a short time, started having seizures, and died. One cat went missing as well. It was such a horrible time. And so many different aspects of this could have paralyzed me. By the way, later, my ex admitted he'd bought me an animal every time he was afraid I'd leave him so I'd stay. So, ALL OF THIS - MY FAULT.

I could have decided I'd never own another animal. I could have been angry and vengeful toward this guy who gave me flowers that killed my cat. I could have hated my ex husband for not helping me help Loba get better. Although this entire circumstance ripped my heart apart, I knew I wasn't honoring them, couldn't bring them back, and wasn't doing any good to anyone or myself by sulking. So I, instead, strived to move on and forgive myself and everyone else involved. In this way, I felt I honored them by using them to make me a more loving person, was good to me by teaching myself that I love myself unconditionally, and was good to others by letting this experience shape me into a more compassionate person and caused me to become a foster mom for kittens years later.

I also had an affair with a married man (I was single). In fact, he was my boss. I had resisted it strongly, taking the moral high ground, at first (I'd never cheated on anyone in my life). But he was unrelenting in his efforts and I feared losing my favorite job I'd ever had making the most money I'd ever made. We had also become quite emotionally close. It was inevitable. And we were caught up in this "faux" relationship for three years! It was so hard to be in and so hard to leave at the same time. I would date other guys to try to move on, but he would make grand, romantic gestures to win me back again over and over and rip my heart open time and again. To add to it, I had started to fall in love with his amazing, beautiful children as well. Although, we were making plans to get an apartment together, he ultimately refused to leave because of them.I was STUCK. I finally had to move out of state and get "stabbed in the back" by him to finally move on.

And these are just two examples of so many things I could regret. I could make a huge list. Ultimate freedom, however, is to lovingly embrace and appreciate all of these things that used to torture us. Then we feel true transformative power and honor our pasts. If you are struggling to forgive yourself for something, I highly recommend this video. You will see the truth.

Please feel free to leave a comment below with any questions or feedback. Namaste.

 

 

 

 

 

It's All Just Energy

In the qigong classes I taught in Granbury, I often times got into some great conversations after class about how energy works and how to decrease stress because qigong is all about increasing chi and decreasing anything that depletes chi.  Of course, stress is one of the major chi-robbers out there.  I shared many of my own personal experiences and encouraged everyone to participate in exercises designed to get a real feel for what I was saying.

I think most people nowadays realize some basics of quantum physics and the law of attraction.  I’ve been experimenting for some time now to try and prove this to myself, in a tangible way, and I have to say I have complete faith in it now, but everyone needs to come to this place on their own if they desire to harness their full potential.  Here are five exercises you can try at home:

Thank you, God, for My Misery  (1 Thessalonians 5:18 says to Praise God in all circumstances)

Set aside some quiet time, light a candle, burn some incense, then make a list of things you don’t like about your life and phrase each list title like this, “Thank you, God, that I am so Broke.” Then list and number as many reasons as you can think of why, if God is good (and “he” IS), this is a GOOD thing that’s working in your favor. The point is, there is a gift in everything.  You just need to discover what it is. Here is Bashar video illustrating this idea perfectly.  The reason for the candle is to bring light, awareness, focus, and adding the incense brings a sacredness so you can feel you’re marking the beginning of something new instead of just plopping on the couch with kids screaming in the background (or whatever your typical environment is).

EXAMPLE: “Thank you, God, for my pain”
1.  It gives me an excuse to not go to that party I don’t want to go to
2.  It gets me sympathy which is the only time I really feel like I get any TLC
3.  I’m sure it probably keeps me humble.  If I didn’t have this nagging pain, I’d probably think I know everything!
4.  Because of this pain, I’ve met some really amazing people I’d never have met otherwise.
5.  Because of this pain, I’ve been able to help other people with similar symptoms/suffering as I’ve had and help them deal with it better.
6.  This pain shows me there’s more yet to be done on my life’s journey and makes me curious about other modalities for healing and to see how energy works in terms of healing myself.
7.  If I do energy work, pain shows me what emotional blockages I have in my body that need releasing so I can move through them and embrace a new view or philosophy.

Play with it and, even if you laugh at it, still write it down.  It counts!  There is some truth in it.  Try doing this exercise every time you have any complaint AT ALL for awhile and see what happens.  See how things in your life start to shift and see how spacious you begin to feel.

15 Minutes a Day of Reality Play

In Bashar’s “Brick Wall Beliefs”, he talks about the key to manifestation:

“When you attach certain kinds of beliefs to your motivational mechanism, you are automatically and immediately propelled in the direction of reinforcing that belief. The idea of this mechanism is that you are always motivated by this mechanism to do whatever it is you choose to do. There are two basic motivations: 1) that you will always move immediately in the direction of what it is you perceive or find to be more pleasurable and 2) move away from or define to be more painful. The key is in what you define, believe, or perceive to be pleasure or pain. There are many subconscious paradoxes. The key to manifesting is intention, focus, concentration, then letting go and surrendering allowing this mechanism to do it’s job on higher levels. You can’t skip the latter. Just imagine, for 15 minutes, about what you want and LET IT GO and REALLY know the job is done. Then go on to do what most excites you in any given moment (not what you do out of anxiety you’re telling yourself you enjoy as actual avoidance).”

So, try this with a buddy sometime… call each other up every night and each of you gets 15 minutes to talk about what’s going on in each others future life.  Ask each other questions just like you do now only you’re talking from the future.  Choose any subject and just go!

EXAMPLE (for singles)

Jill:  Hey, Pam, guess what?  My boyfriend called today and said he loved me.  He’s SO romantic.  I know how busy he was, but he took time out of his busy day to acknowledge me and make me feel special.  I’m so lucky to have found him.
Pam:  Oh, my gosh!  He is sooo sweet.  What else did he say?  Did he go on again about how you make him feel like the luckiest guy in the world for having found you?  Ugh.  You guys make me sick.  So, when are you guys going to the Bahamas?

Do this exercise just before bed every night if you can (to set the tone for having a great sleep) then wake up the next day and not think about how you’re going to make it happen.  Try it!

10 Minutes of Laughter

After you hang up with your friend, or if you guys end up doing the 15 minutes earlier in the day, you can try laughing for 10 minutes before bed and/or 10 minutes when you get up.  Of course, this works best if you’re single unless your partner has a pretty open mind, but it definitely works.  Another way to do this is laugh your way home from work and laugh all the way to work.  This is such a powerful way to immediately lift your vibration and relax you.  Also, if you do this regularly, and a stressful situation hits you unexpectedly, your auto reaction will be to laugh which automatically takes you to a better place from which you can think more clearly and keeps you from reacting negatively affecting your relationships with others involved.

When I started laughing before bed, my cat, Neo, would look at me like, “What?!” and I would laugh harder.  Then he started to think I was laughing at him so he started trying to figure out what it was that he was doing to make me laugh so he could do it more.  Now, he just goes crazy acting like a clown and takes all the credit for my ten minutes of laughter!  It’s great.

Something incredible is happening!

No matter what is happening in your life, good or bad, try saying something to yourself (make sure you believe it or it won’t work) like, “Something incredible is happening… I can just feel it!” and see how it feels to say that.  See how it shifts your energy.  You could try “A miracle is happening!”, “This is the most amazing time of my life”, “This is the point in a movie where somebody stumbles upon a destiny changing factor”…whatever makes you feel optimistic. Adding the word “now” can make it that much more powerful. “Everything that happens in my life is for my best now”, “I experience miracles every day now”, “My days are full of miracles and magic now”, “I have the midas touch now… everything I touch turns to gold!”

I faced a very scarey time once when I had just moved into a new place and was having very realistic nightmares and feeling like my feet were being played with at night.  My whole bed shook and vibrated when I would only wiggle a toe!  I felt watched and very uneasy.  One morning, after an intense nightmare, I actually fell out of bed straight onto my neck!  I couldn’t believe I lived!  I was pretty much momentarily terrified wondering if there were spirits in my new home wanting to harm me.  I had all these thoughts like, “I knew this was too good to be true” and had flashes of those couples being interviewed on those ghost hunting shows saying, “We were so grateful to have gotten such a good deal on the house and felt this was really a turning point in our lives when suddenly the worst chapter of our lives was about to unfold.”  I called every intuitive friend I could think of and tried to get to the bottom of it.  I was feeling quite fearful and was exhausted from the lack of sleep and peace of mind.

Suddenly, I thought, “How is this different than anything else I face?  What would I be telling my students?  How is this the same as a physical ailment?  It’s all energy!”  I laughed to think I’d gotten caught up in such a whirlwind of fear.  I started saying, “Something truly amazing is happening!  A miracle is unfolding!”.  Sure enough, I go to bed that night and read an OSHO book and open it right up to a chapter on ghosts!  WHAT?!  This was a 2-1/2″ book.  How did I happen to leave off just before a part on ghosts??  Then, a good friend of mine said she knew just who to get me in touch with who is really good at clearing energy (I am good at clearing energy…  it just feels reassuring sometimes to have reinforcements in such a personal matter where your own bias can get in the way).  After talking to this gal, we became immediate friends, she helped me clear the home, it now feels like a normal home, and we do the 15 Minutes a Day of Reality Play exercise with each other. I was also able to heal a friend who called to check on how I was doing through the ordeal and happened to have pain in her leg while talking to me.  I cleared up a long standing chronic condition for her over the phone BECAUSE she called me regarding this matter.  I also inspired many of my students who saw how I shifted the whole situation around to see it through to one big miracle.  I’m telling you, from personal experience, you can shift ANYTHING.  You just have to keep saying the mantra and wait for the magic!

Breathe in Pink, Breathe out Love

OSHO, in his book about raising children, gives an exercise in the back and I’ve just put a little personal twist on it… Wait.  First off, you must do this at a time when you can do it at least 5 times or don’t bother.  Ok, here goes…

Breathe in the color pink directly into your heart chakra (not into your physical heart) then, as you breathe out, imagine love transforming the world with your breath.  When I breathe in pink, I also smell magnolia flower because it’s been said to increase and magnify manifestation and because I once smelled the most beautiful magnolia and love bringing the memory of its smell back into my consciousness.  I’ll never forget that one little bud.

You can use this in any situation and at any time.  It has incredible transformative powers!  I used it in the above story every night before bed to get me through the fear.  Also, if I was woken up in the middle of the night, I did it to transform energy and get back to sleep.

I hope you’ll try at least one of these exercises for at least a week and that it will increase your faith in the power of energy! 

Please feel free to leave a comment below with any questions or feedback. Namaste.

RECOMMENDED ROCKS
FOR ACCEPTANCE AND JOY

Crystals for Laughter (such as Sunstone, Carnelian and Citrine) = are amazing to raise those energies needed to manifest so don't forget them. Laughing is the ultimate healer.

Rose Quartz Brings unconditional love for oneself and others. It helps the process of allowing good things into your life.

Orange Spessartine = There doesn’t seem to be anything quite as bright and joyful. The vibrations and rays that emit from this striking crystal can fill us with pure bliss. It helps us find the joy in our lives that we have been missing and needing. Spessartine garnets are energy enhancers, and givers of joy. They are helpful in balancing the energy of the sacral chakra. With its orange color, Spessartine has the strength of the red rays joined with the powerful fire of the gold rays giving it the powers to combine, integrate, and unite. It is also reported by other practitioners to attract devotion, warmth, and understanding.

Sunrise Quartz Crystal =  It is a pure blend of orange and red hues. It offers you the joy and happiness of orange and the fire and passion of red. Sunrise Aura Quartz brings us orange, the color of joy and friendship. Joy is a pure emotion, an elusive one, but a heartfelt one. Often as people grow older, they lose the capacity for experiencing pure joy. It can be a simple delight or a deep, lasting feeling. If something seems to be missing but you can’t really describe it, perhaps a bit of the energy of the sunrise mixed in your daily life is needed. This Sunrise Aura Quartz is zest, life, and the burst of new ideas. Carry this crystal when you need inspiration. You will be inspired and motivated at the same time. The energy is quite potent.

Chrysocolla = A stone of feminine power used for creativity, dispelling anger, and easing fear.

White crystals (such as Howlite, Opalite and White Opal) = Help obtaining a clear mind; they also clear away the clutter and obstacles in your life. They purify your thoughts and thus your actions. White crystals bring forth, freedom, hope, cohesiveness, unity and remove inhibitions.

Moonstone = A crystal that helps you to re-structure your life at all levels. Moonstone, as the same name suggests, re-energizes well in moonlight and will be at its most powerful once cleansed, re-energized and programmed. If you practicing the law of attraction with this stone it will help bring your hopes and wishes to the fore. Be careful as it will give you what you need and not necessarily what you think you want. Moonstone calms the emotions and removes all negativity from all chakras. This is important if you want your desires to come to fruition as doubt can often creep in when setting intentions and consequently slow the whole process down. To call forth the New we have to get rid of the Old; this means that we need to get rid of old patterns of behaviour.

Kyanite = has a soothing tranquil nature and it is also known as the “Earth Stone”. This is an excellent stone for surfacing and dissolving old beliefs. It reminds us that everything happens for a purpose and we are ultimately in charge of our lives.  This is certainly true for me as I always find blessings in lessons and feel more in control of my live and my whole attitude to it. It brings out our natural ability to manifest things into reality through thought and visualisation, the latter being truly a must for the first stage of any “ dream come true “.

Mookite = Helps in a particular goal. It is a very active stone; it is full of Mother Earth Energy which stimulates the immune system and helps the body to heal. As I mentioned in a previous blog, it’s important to be physically well as it will help you mentally and physically. Mookite shields us from negativity and worry from past failures which can distract us from our goals. It represents new beginnings, new journeys and new creations.

Clear Quartz = This stone will balance all the chakras and brings clarity, balance and harmony, two important ingredients when we want to manifest our decisions. It will align the emotional mental, physical and spiritual aspects of a person. Clear Quartz will also amplify the healing effects of all the other stones mentioned. It’s also great to carry all these lovely stones in a pouch with you.

How It All Started

People often ask me how I got to be doing what I'm doing now.  I've always been intuitive, but honestly never imagined doing this line of work at all.  In fact, I'd have scoffed and laughed if you told me. I was in the corporate world climbing up the ladder on my way to Executive Director.  Years ago, I'd learned qigong for its health benefits but didn't really believe in it.  I learned how to work on others as well, but thought the people who said I was helping them were just humoring me and I didn't feel any difference in myself.  So I stopped practicing it.  I dismissed it as a bunch of hooey although I was impressed by what I'd heard "masters" were able to do. But, then again, those were just "stories". 

My career as a Community Relations Director came to a close due to stress and politics.  After I got married, I resumed a positive reinforcement dog training business I had years prior, focused on writing a book I had been wanting to write on consciousness, and developed a life coaching program online that incorporated nutrition for optimal health.  This combo was the best way I could stay mobile with all our moving around (he was a Geologist) - Montana, Oregon, then Texas, 3 houses, 2 rentals, and countless hotels.  We landed in Granbury, Texas and I filed for divorce six months later after years of trying very hard to make the marriage work.

When I left my husband, a friend said I could stay with her for awhile "in the mountains" while she wrote a book and I could figure out my next steps. I took her up on it and didn't realized till I'd already left, that "in the mountains" meant New Mexico!  Once I'd gotten introduced to Riodoso a bit, we started to talk about what was next for me. She was a Naturopath with a background in reflexology and was certified to teach it. I told her about qigong and what little faith I had in it. She asked me to do a demonstration for her (I had developed my own twist on it that intrigued her).  She boosted my faith saying she could really tell a difference in some of her ailments right away and the things I'd picked up on were spot on.  She suggested I incorporate reflexology with my qigong and work on some of her clients.  I got rave reviews and word about me was spreading. 

About that time, I was required to go back to Texas on legal business and, when I got there, I felt a strong pull to be there.  I made an about face and relocated back to Texas with more knowledge about herbs, supplements, and reflexology under my belt as well as some confidence in energy work. A couple practitioners were opening up a smoothie and juice bar where they planned to offer energy work and had heard about what I do through the grapevine.   They asked me to join them and I was able to work there as their part time juicer and practitioner as I built a new life and business.  I started gathering testimonials from happy clients and building my clientele.  Then I started to expand out and do parties.  Then I was putting up a booth at trade shows soon after.  Right as I got settled into a new cute little apartment right downtown and was loving living in Granbury, I received a higher calling. I was called to go to Boulder where I now live and work as a Psychic Reader for the Lighthouse Bookstore Thursday through Saturdays and do remote sessions for people all over the world

RECOMMENDED ROCKS
FOR MAJOR LIFE DECISIONS

Amethyst = A wonderful Third-Eye Chakra stone, helping one throughout the decision making process.  It has a high vibration and is the most commonly used crystal for intuition and clear thinking, as well as for healing and protection.
Azurite =  Works with the throat and Third-Eye chakras, and can help one acheive a clear, new perspective on any situation.  It is a great stone for the intellect, and it is often used to ameliorate stress, worry, fear, and sadness, by bringing in light. 
Rutilated Quartz = Helps one to make contact with higher spiritual guidance, which is a must when making important decisions.  Many use Rutilated Quartz when in need of special insight into a problem.  It is also a great mood lifter by pulling away negative energies that might be influencing those involved.
Flourite = An excellent Third-Eye Chakra stone, working well to enhance intuition and to facilitate impartiality.  Flourite is also psychically protective, relieving stress and removing negativity.